tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11096756334457906882012-02-16T19:10:40.620+08:00Glimpses into the mind of a very average person, striving to find some truth and purpose in life.klongtokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07756713404435672493noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1109675633445790688.post-45642770912868471102011-11-20T21:54:00.000+08:002011-11-20T21:54:56.354+08:00

I had a very enlightening conversation with someone today. And was given very good feedback. I was told i had changed... i guess in some ways drastically. I'd have to agree.... It was easy to be all spiritual when there was time. When my mornings were not a get out of bed and go to work or get home, bathe and sleep routine. Now a days, i actually have to motivate myself to burn incense at the

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With the current events happening in my home country, i can't help but to reflect on my own thoughts and actions. Here we have a blanket banning of an event meant to create awareness and tolerance, And on the other end we have prejudice and intolerance. Fixed views i call it. I wonder how often this happens in our everyday lives, when our views become fixed. And how easy it is to judge when our

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I often wonder if disagreements and fights begin because i fail to be more understanding, Or that i'm selfish and have put myself first... As much as i try to be open and wise, i guess i have my bad judgements.. I can be grumpy and thoughtless, Recently i've been told that i'm hostile and moody.. Perhaps all that is true... But i think even the best of us have bad days.. I recall a period of

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For everyone out there who believes that we see the world through our own experiences, of a pair of filters moulded by our immediate worlds... How aware are you really? How do fights and disagreements begin? I wonder... Well it has to start from 2 points..... both equally correct.. or so they think... So if both is correct, then who is wrong? I remember when i was young, i was bad at maths...

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Gadgets, gadgets, gadgets....I remember during my younger days i could remember all my friends numbers and relatives numbers by hard. I actually still remember quite a number of my primary school friends numbers... but sadly can only recall a handful of numbers ever since i got myself a handphone... And as some numbers has changed, the old numbers become invalid.. It is just so easy programming

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Metta or loving kindness is one of the most profound teachings in the world...It begins sending loving thoughts to yourself, loved ones, acquaintances, all beings and eventually you enemies...Easier said then done...It's always easy to send happy thoughts to people whom you love..but what if you hate your enemy and secretly wish misfortunes befall them...Like in cases where that person caused you

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Relationships are such complicated things...Expecially when expectations and frustrations get in the way...It's funny how at the beginning when one is thrilled to have met someone,everything is so beautiful...We are so thrilled at the thought that someone would find little plain me interestingthat we think they are perfect...They smell good, are just so sensitive.... are so good looking....Know

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I spoke to my friend at work today...She had so much pent up inside her...These past few years, and all the hardship she has gone through...And as i watched and comforted her through her tears...Allowing her to release, and heal...I felt my heart bleed...Drip drip drip....i kept listening as i provided comfort....eyes tearing as i shared her sorrow...Words were random, some unexpressed...And i

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Looking back these past few months..It has been a major roller coaster ride..Physically, emotionally and mentally..So much has happened and so much has changed...I've become stronger in some ways..commiting to something and going all out for it..Tho my methods may not always be correct...I'm learning...Yes.. at times it's frustrating...As it always is when i try to put my views across..Something

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I do not think it's hard to get me to talk,Just that i need things to instigate the conversation,As a child i was always contemplative..thinking about the ways of the world...planning how i'd like my life to be....I always had difficulty talking about emotions.Writing was always easier..I wanted to be a spiritual guru you see..And was always avoiding getting too deep in the so called worldly path

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Black- whiterough - smooth Hard - softTwo sides of a coin. There is never a right side or a wrong sideNever a good side or a bad side..It's just a complimenting side....When there is one, there will be the otherWhen there is good there will be evil... So really.... why do we fight so?

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I have lost it, i am no more me....for i no longer catch glimpses of what i used to be...i no more shine or run like i did...I have lost it, i am no more me....Innocence lost.... as i grow old..Eyes once opened can never close...Things seen or heard can never be erased..I have lost it, I am no more me...Parts have died, ugly parts reborn,confusion, depressions, occasionally scorned..Thoughtless

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Just sitting alone, contemplating on the different people that has come in and out of my life...Paying tribute to the people that have picked me up when times were bad...My first memory of an Angel was this girl called Racheal.I must have been only 7-8 years of age then... and had a friend named Angela..We were pretty close, being the only Asians in the class... We were in Papua New Guinea you

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My mind is usually the clearest in the mornings, right after a good nights sleep.When my analytical controller mind has yet to be awaken from it's slumber,Here's what happened...Topic of the day.... some words i heard many many years ago, when an ex broke up with me." Sometimes love just ain't enough" Mind you, it's also a lyric from a song... back to the topic. At that moment of time, when i

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PODsPower of dreams..People on DrugsPrince of darkness....This new place of mine surely does bring out many different faces of my personality.From faith and determination, ups and downs, to fear and discouragement...But i must say, it definaetly has brought a lot of spiritual people our way...From those in the faith, to those seeking their faiths,and every single person has a different story, a

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This is the time for the monk in me to change...For you see, the monk in me never had much aspirations, But only to help and serve.The monk in me never liked computers,for it gave him a tight chest and tingly arms...The monk in me in the past i'm sure, has taken vows of poverty,and has since worked hard to sever them,The monk in me hates numbers, and debts are like wings being clipped.He dosen't

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Funny how life plays tricks on you. I've always remebered when i was young i would always tell myself, Jules.... don't study Business or marketing. It's an evil trade... one where there is exploitation and where one will have to think of $$ how to keep it, how to make it.... such sufferingAnd oh how i'd judge spouses who started businesses together. Wondering if all the fights and differences in

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It's funny how easy we lose ourselves when we are around people..And worse for me.. as i usually don't have much of a preference to things..I and usually just go with the flow or do what makes people happy..My excuse? Keep the peace...You see... I have a disease.. a deadly disease..One that drains me, and makes me very sick if i don't keep it in check..And most of us have it, but we may not know

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It's quite amusing how life is..We go around learning lessons and trying to fix things..And i guess , sometimes there is nothing to fix at all..We try our best to make things work.. but it dosen't..And of course i could be utterly wrong..We've all been in situations where we try to do whats best..But somehow it just isn't..I guess sometimes we focus too much on the big thingsbut forget the small

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"All the world is a stage and we are it's actors ", Shakespeare quoted in a play.And there is much truth to this, for our speech and actions differ with situations and people.This i find is necessary in the need to have a good quality of life, as our quality of life greatly depends on our ability to socialize. YES? NO? UNDECIDED?Well here is a scenario, Blue shirt A, would need to use different

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A girl that has to part with her room mate...A Wife cooking and cleaning for her family...A little girl crying...A man having an affair...A boy fighting with another...Gay men kissing,Straight couples fighting...War, disharmony...Peace, love...White collars working,blue collars striving,Mean bosses Raving..Endless lists piling...Lottery winner celebrating...Homeless man begging...It makes me

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I recently found a book at a jumble sale about a woman called Peace Pilgrim..Her birthdate and name she never told as she felt her message was so much more important..Well.. this is a tribute to a very inspring woman, that walked more then 25000 miles on foot from 1953 to 1981... with nothing but her clothes on her back and in her blue tunic her only possessions ..........This is her message.....

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Are we not caught in the chaos of technology..?the constant tunes of the radio and the TV...Have you seen those people who are constantly distracted,with an ipod, or a blue tooth to their ear...even when walking in the midst of nature..Have you noticed our children are constantly running?chaseing and seeking one trend after the other...Or that there is hardly a day where we enter our homes,and

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I started the day feeling rather down, drained and blue...Well of course i would.. the past few weeks maybe even months everything seemed a little blur..I guess i entered into a state of solitude.. but not of the peaceful kind..the separated from the world kind...I went into a state where i was like a machine..doing this and that, running here and there,thinking about a gazillion things at a time

klongtokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07756713404435672493noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1109675633445790688.post-87960470144979234502009-01-29T21:56:00.001+08:002009-01-29T22:39:01.731+08:00

Ever felt that words are so limiting?ever wished that people could put away with words ,and go straight in to the mental message we all have before those foul things leave our lips?Ever wondered why the same things said to 2 different people sometimes get interpreted in different ways?Its funny how things we hear can be heard so differently at different moments in time...Now please don't say that

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There is a saying that goes.. habits take 21 days to make and 1 day to break..It makes me wonder, how many habits of mine was moulded since young.One things is for sure.. i admire my parent's commitment and dedication in raising us.Though, i also remember the fear my mother instilled....No she never used the cane... neither did she use hard words...But the warnings she gave used to ring in my

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Have you ever awoken with a deep feeling of dread?A feeling with unknown reasons, no matter how far or wide you look?Have you ever felt like it could be some sort of premonition,that somewhere, somehow something has changed? And you look around to find that everything seems the same.And then the logical mind kicks in and says.."Trully, trully, you believe not so..it's all in the mind, i'm sure

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Today i was most fortunate to have been able to watch the movie titled The Passion, directed by Mel Gibson. This Movie is in Aramic, which i feel really adds on to it's authencity. I am definetly no expert on Christianity, butI was greatly touched and inspired by this film. It actually left me contemplating.. thus, i shall share a scene or two that remains in my memory. In one scene, Jesus quoted

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This morning as i was sitting in silence i suddenly remembered a verse from the buddha someone used to tell me. Here is the english translation with Pali taken from the book Pali recitation for meditators by Sujiva.I am of the nature to decay - ( Jaradhammomhi )I have not gone beyond decay - ( Jaram Anatito )I am of the nature to be diseased - (Vyadhi Dhammomhi)I have not gone beyond disease - (

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It's been such a while since i last blogged, i guess is due to all the excitement in my life right now. And yes, this is one of the days that i desperately need to cut my hair, and let some of the tenseness and brain boiling go... But that is not why i am writing today. This morning i awoke feeling a little gloomy, it was just one of those days where you get up on the wrong side of the bed,

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For some weird reason during a conversation last night, a friend said something that triggered something in my mind. So i made it into a riddle, which then became a topic of discussion during dinner tonight. After all, we all like riddles right? especially if we can solve them. It goes like this:If a person is Good at one moment, and is bad at another moment,Which is the real moment? And of

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Today was just like any other ordinary day. I woke up early, did my morning routines and went straight to my desktop and started working on my assignments. By noon, i was sweating like a pig. I had the fan turned off; my very own contribution to the fight against global warming. It's rather pitiful, but i try my best. That's when a thought arose... "I need to get a hair cut. Shave my head bald if

klongtokhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07756713404435672493noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1109675633445790688.post-30621903216127303412008-04-07T22:57:00.001+08:002008-04-10T10:03:26.850+08:00

Hmmm ... this is a very interesting question. Honestly, i never thought I'd ever start a blog. I was one of those few people who thought "why the hell would i want to let the whole world know what I'm doing?" and " isn't it bad enough that we read so much gossip in magazines and papers, do we really need more on the Internet.?" Well, i guess things change. People change, thoughts and perceptions

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