Ramblings of a disturbed mind.

My mind is usually the clearest in the mornings, right after a good nights sleep.
When my analytical controller mind has yet to be awaken from it's slumber,
Here's what happened...

Topic of the day.... some words i heard many many years ago, when an ex broke up with me.
" Sometimes love just ain't enough" Mind you, it's also a lyric from a song... back to the topic. At that moment of time, when i heared it i often wondered why...

Love conquers the world, so we are told. Everything can be healed by love... i agree.
But people are two sides of a coin. When there is Love.... unless of course you are a saint, there will be hate.

The hate of being let down, the hate of being called names in anger, the hate of your lovers attention being on someone else, the hate of obliging to things you really wouldn't agree on.... Now how would love overcome that, when the hate is the sourced from that same love?

Some people would call me passive, as i often do not verbalise my opinions. In some ways i would agree, as i only verbalise them when i feel the other is willing to listen. I really would not agree in shouting matches, and i rarely allow myself to get into one but choose to remain silent.

Eg: my boss thinks lowly of the rest of the staff, Chinese ones not included, and often refers to them as doing things without thinking, unable to open up their minds and think further, and always suspecting people of doing things behind his back. Then he wonders why they won't discuss things with him. Well honestly, if i were them i wouldn't bother too.

For as much as he say's they having an equal discussion, they are not. There can never be, if one has already concluded that the other has a closed mind, and fail to see that people have different opinions and come from different back grounds. Just because one thinks one idea will work, it does not mean the other will fail.

I do not believe that calling people such has any benefit at all. I think it boarders on verbal abuse. Lucky for me in my past relationships, my partners have cushioned and encouraged me through my weaknesses, and guided me through them, sometimes impatiently. And not shove it in my face. But really.... how does telling someone they are stupid help them grow? If thats the first words that come into a conversation, you can definetly be sure, they will only hear 30% of what you say after. Angry or not angry.....

After any shouting match, or in my case being shoouted at, it usually takes me quite a few days to recover. My aura gets pierced with many daggers and holes when people send their angry energy towards me. ( Mental note: strengthen aura) Hence, i choose to not say things in anger the best i can, and if i had to, ensure the angry energy is contained. For sure, it takes time for me to clear my pent up anger, and i do feel sorry for the poor person that may annoy me enough for some of it to be released towards them. Reckless drivers included. I choose to release the anger in other ways.. ( mental note of need to exercise and meditate)

I no longer know why i stopped exercising. i really should get started. ( Mental note, find exercise partner or join a race)

Oh well..... life goes on. Like a friend just recently shared " you should never be sad in moments in life when there is suffering" and i have added " for if you are sad, then you had better devote all your energy to never be born again/ or to living eternally in heaven" which ever suits you most.

now back to work

PODs The Backpackers Home

PODs

Power of dreams..
People on Drugs
Prince of darkness....

This new place of mine surely does bring out many different faces of my personality.
From faith and determination, ups and downs, to fear and discouragement...
But i must say, it definaetly has brought a lot of spiritual people our way...

From those in the faith, to those seeking their faiths,
and every single person has a different story, a different view,
from the liberals to the extremes.....

No rights, no wrongs...
Just Power Of Dreams....
It's funny how the intention to draw spiritual people actually draws them...

So here's a new Intention to send to the universe...

People that come to PODs will heal and grow in the ways best for them...
PODs is visited by those near and far....
PODs sustains the stresses of time smoothly...
PODs is filled will love and compassion....

PODs is filled with abundance...
I Love PODs, people love PODs
PODs is clean and beautiful
So be it, So be it, So be it.......

PODs The Backpackers Home............. ROCKs