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It's funny how easy we lose ourselves when we are around people..
And worse for me.. as i usually don't have much of a preference to things..I and usually just go with the flow or do what makes people happy..
My excuse? Keep the peace...

You see... I have a disease.. a deadly disease..
One that drains me, and makes me very sick if i don't keep it in check..
And most of us have it, but we may not know it...
It's called... THE PEOPLE PLEASER...

We are all dominated by views and opinions that are usually not ours,
from TV to parents, to lovers ,to peers ... and politicians..
For god's sake, with all the stimulation it is obviously hard to know what we really want... But then does it mean we are not honest to ourselves if
we eat fast foods or smoke when we don't want to?

Are we being honest to ourselves if we have or feel we should do things even when we know it takes a toll on us?
How about when we spend beyond our means just to fit in with the rest?
Of course.. once in a while it is nice to splurge.. but when is it too much?

How do you balance integrity, honesty, matyrism and rigidity?

After all.. keeping the peace is great, but people wear out after a while
And being to fixed causes a lot of damage too.. it's limiting, rigid.

So how..?
Guess i'll stay quiet and reflect on it a little, hopefully i'll strike a balance... Soon..